I am missing out so much because of driving lessons that it really is upsetting me to the point where i can't take it anymore. I've got no time to do what i want ): Meet the girls, working and what not. But i know, i know i must be positive but wah lao. And i know that i'm lucky that Sigh. And my parents ahh. Everywhere also they want to go holiday. And they know that i am the type whom when i decide to commit, i commit all the way. Openly insult me infront of everyone. Especially you bah. I just. Urgh. Idk. I feel very sad now. You of all people should understand cause we are so alike but still. Alah ): Letting it out did not make me feel any better at all. I wish you were here. You always know what to say. But my abang is being so nice. He is trying hard to make me feel better by continously asking me if i'm alright and whether driving was okay. I hate myself for being cold and all that. For not being thankful and what not. Sigh. I hate myself la. I feel like a really bad person now. Sigh now i don't even know what i'm rambling about already. Ok bye i need to sleep must wake up for driving tmr (see i told you i have no life).

Today sucked. Was supposed to go
to the zoo with cousins but i had driving in the afternoon ):
So i'm here at home all alone. Damn lonely -.-
hahahaha. Maybe i'll go catch up on some sleep.
Hectic week next week. Hectic i tell you. Okaaaaaaay.
Bye. Hungry farah=Angry farah. I need food NOW.
hahaha, k bye.

I think i'm going get real sick over the weekends. I can feel some virus creeping in.
My head hurts, my throat is hardcore itchy. I can't open my eyes properly, feels very droopy. Plus all the stuff that is going on in my mind right now. Its just not healthy.
Anyway, i'm not ready to make or take any risks. And knowing that i am fickle-minded,
i've made up my mind. And so maybe its better for me to stop.

Boys, ahh i don't like boys. I want to be lesbian.

okay i deleted my previous post, too angsty.